Ever since I found out my visa to be in the States was denied I have lived in a certain amount of fear. Even though scripture teaches, command even, pretty clearly that we are not to fear, I found myself trying to climb out of a very slippery cave of intense and very real fear. Real to me anyway.

There are many more lessons that I need to learn from that experience I am sure. Some that at this point, I cant even imagine. The Lord continues to open my eyes a little more all the time as to why I had to go through that and continue to struggle with it. Part of the reason I believe is that He wants to show me that I need to start trusting in Him more. What that looks like? I dont know, but I am sure it will be exciting to find out as I continue to wrestle through it.
After all the fear and anxiety, I got back across the border into the States on Sunday afternoon with no problems. The border guard wanted to know where I was going, what I was doing and asked to see the letter that Doulos gave me. After that he was satisfied and sent me on my way. It was amazing and I cried. Out of relief and joy, I cried. And then I sent a text to pretty much every one I know!
So I am back in Branson, ready for the next part of this journey. Things are different then they were before I left for Christmas. Aubrey and Hannah are gone and 3 new Bigs, Diena, Megan and Emily are joining us this week. I am really excited for them and what they will bring to our team. As well as how the Lord will work in their lives and hearts. Awesome stuff to witness! Things are also different because we are different. Not only am I a different person then when I arrived here in August, everyone else is different to. Its good though. We have grown through those differences together and grown to love one another in ways I never knew existed. The Lord is truly amazing.